Being Alive

It is really not easy...

Damn! How come I caught a cold again!!!
It is the fourth time since last Easter in a year time......
I always thought I can live with myself well, but now......
I am in a really bad health condition.

Maybe I should learn how to take good care of myself first......

Way Back Into Love
(from 'Music and Lyrics')

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Heard it in "The History Boys" and found it was from the musical "Pal Joey".

Here is a Patti LuPone version.

It couldn't be worse anymore...After so many depressing hours, we tried to do something that can inspire us then we go to see 'Avenue Q'. 
It is always one of my favourite musicals and today all those songs are just make me can't agree more... 

What do you do with a B.A. in English? (hmm...my B.A. in...and M.A. in......) 
What is my life going to be?...I can't pay the bills yet, 'cause I have no skills yet......

It sucks to be broke and unemployed and turning thirty-three.It sucks to be me...
(It sucks to be single and unemployed and turing twenty-five...for me...)
I like romantic things like music and art. And as you know I have a gigantic heart. (so do I....)
So why, don't I have a boyfriend?  Yes...why.......

Purpose,it's that little flame that lights a fire under your ass.Purpose,it keeps you going strong like a car with a full tank of gas. Everyone else has a purpose so what's mine? 

And then, in the end, they sung... 
Don't stress,relax,let life roll off your backs except for death and paying taxes everything in life is only for now! 
The show made us kind of feel better...at least during the 2 hours time... 
Life may be scary...Only for now. But it's only temporary. 
Everything in life is only for now. 

So...we should try to cheer up!!  And also work harder on everything...

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And even the Mix Tape kind of being what I wanted to say..... 
He likes me.I think he likes me But does he "like me" like me like I like him?Will we be friends,or something more?

The Broadway World.com had a report on "What's the Most Romantic Broadway Love Song Ever?" and it is the third year for it. I like some of them and I choose some for my list.

If music be the food of love, play on;
Give me excess of it, that, surfeiting,
The appetite may sicken, and so die.
That strain again! it had a dying fall:
O, it came o'er my ear like the sweet sound,
That breathes upon a bank of violets,
Stealing and giving odour! Enough; no more:
'Tis not so sweet now as it was before.
O spirit of love! how quick and fresh art thou,
That, notwithstanding thy capacity
Receiveth as the sea, nought enters there,
Of what validity and pitch soe'er,
But falls into abatement and low price,
Even in a minute: so full of shapes is fancy
That it alone is high fantastical.

假如音樂是愛情的食糧，那麼奏下去吧；
盡量地奏下去，
好讓愛情因過飽噎塞而死。
又奏起這個調子來了！它有一種漸漸消沉下去的節奏。
啊！它經過我的耳畔，就像微風
吹拂一叢紫羅蘭，發出輕柔的聲音，
一面把花香偷走，一面又把花香分送。夠了！別再奏下去了！
它現在已經不像原來那樣甜蜜了。
愛情的精靈呀！你是多麼敏感而活潑；
雖然你有海—樣的容量，可是無論怎樣
高貴超越的事物，
一進了你的範圍，
便會在頃刻間失去了它的價值。愛情是這樣充滿了意象，
在一切事物中是最富於幻想的。

 Our seats were double booked...>"<

It's actually a concert about Christmas songs.
The performers're great; though not all seasonal songs are happy ones.
Besides, all male performers wear suit which makes we two merry. :p

Accidentally met the Trekkie Monster/Nicky(Simon Lipkin) as an audience at front door.
No 'fans' at the stage door, so we just waited to have a look.
Dear Princeton(Jon Robyns) is still cute but we missed Boq(James Gillan) again.
Found out one more gorgeous man, Paul Spicer!

After the discussion in seminar yesterday, I seriously think about the question. How can we promote Taiwan?

I found the video that our Tourism Bureau made, though I have never seen it abroad, it does show Taiwan in a way. But is it all that we have? Or are these special enough to draw foreigners to come? I am not sure...