Being Alive

以前每一次，都是我要跟棒球／中職／兄弟象說再見；這次，好像被你們搶先了......

中華職棒20年，我沒有跟了20年也有15年...是不是這次真的要再見了。

 

小時候，跟著爸爸看球；小時候，喜歡黃色喜歡大象；

就在一代象三連霸那時候，就在92奧運之後，就這樣變成了兄弟象迷。

一直到今天。

Although it is not long enough to said so...I am not happy these days.....

我又發作了...

週期性低潮...

反正沒人在乎......

My digital camera was broken on the second(or maybe first) day I arrived LA...
Then I used my sister's DC and my LOMO to take photos...

Yesterday, I tried to setup bluetooth system in my laptop.
After the software updated, it asked me to reboot my laptop.
Then...it died..... Only shown 'unknown hard error'...

And it was right before the Olympic baseball game....
How could I solve it.....

後來想想...I am actually the invincible one!!
昨天晚上還在路邊哭，還在覺得要崩潰，結果我還是在這。
很多事情，反而別人看得比我嚴重；反而別人替我感到更多的不平。
雖然每次覺得的最差與谷底都還是一直不斷在下探，就是這樣在挑戰極限吧。
這些事情，自己也討厭跟別人說，說再多有何用？沒有親身體會的人怎知那感受？
所以說起來，我的確是個無比樂觀的人。一直不斷地再起。
雖然還是覺得挺可悲，平常喧喧鬧鬧找玩伴容易，想找個人抱著哭卻不知道找誰......

嗯，我最強　我最強　世界上只我最強！我會挺起胸膛更坦蕩蕩的活！

寫完論文我要去逛動物園。

The more I want to delete..............

真煩真煩真的不知道自己在寫什麼了啦!!!
明明就好像接近終點...怎麼好像那麼遠阿阿阿阿阿......

我好想出去曬太陽
我好想出去看戲
我好想玩相機

可是不行......

也不是都沒話說沒事發生...也不能算是懶得打字...

只是，有時候有些情緒上的事情好像說多了，只會讓人煩，甚至自己看了都討厭，就沒有說出來會比較好的效果了。當然，在現實中，在這裡，還是會找管道抒發的，遙遠的那端...嗯...就這樣吧...

反正，我還是會好好的，如你們所願的。

It is really not easy...

Damn! How come I caught a cold again!!!
It is the fourth time since last Easter in a year time......
I always thought I can live with myself well, but now......
I am in a really bad health condition.

Maybe I should learn how to take good care of myself first......

It couldn't be worse anymore...After so many depressing hours, we tried to do something that can inspire us then we go to see 'Avenue Q'. 
It is always one of my favourite musicals and today all those songs are just make me can't agree more... 

What do you do with a B.A. in English? (hmm...my B.A. in...and M.A. in......) 
What is my life going to be?...I can't pay the bills yet, 'cause I have no skills yet......

It sucks to be broke and unemployed and turning thirty-three.It sucks to be me...
(It sucks to be single and unemployed and turing twenty-five...for me...)
I like romantic things like music and art. And as you know I have a gigantic heart. (so do I....)
So why, don't I have a boyfriend?  Yes...why.......

Purpose,it's that little flame that lights a fire under your ass.Purpose,it keeps you going strong like a car with a full tank of gas. Everyone else has a purpose so what's mine? 

And then, in the end, they sung... 
Don't stress,relax,let life roll off your backs except for death and paying taxes everything in life is only for now! 
The show made us kind of feel better...at least during the 2 hours time... 
Life may be scary...Only for now. But it's only temporary. 
Everything in life is only for now. 

So...we should try to cheer up!!  And also work harder on everything...

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And even the Mix Tape kind of being what I wanted to say..... 
He likes me.I think he likes me But does he "like me" like me like I like him?Will we be friends,or something more?

I am dying now…the cause of mine might be the “funny sleeping position”…:(

Word for today: stiff neck

Cause of a stiff neck–

Not all stiff necks are the same. While most of the time a stiff neck is caused by whiplash, ergonomics, wear and tear, or just sleeping in a funny position, there are those instances where it can be the sign of something systemic. Meningitis, an infection of the lining of the brain, is one such instance, and can be quite serious. Stiff neck is one of the symptoms of meningitis. Rule out meningitis as a cause of stiff neck.

http://backandneck.about.com/b/a/168232.htm

好像很久沒有這樣了，為了自己唸書唸不好而不開心..
很糟糕地從高中開始好像變得不那麼在乎，念不好就算了過得去就好....